HOW?

 So I did "announce" my leaving on Facebook a few weeks ago.  My Facebook page seems more like a journal than anything and I've always been pretty transparent on there.  Most people would tell you on Social Media you don't get the true person, it's always through a filter of perfection, well I'd beg to differ about my page.  You get it all!  There is no perfection in my life and honestly my filter for things is pretty gone so with me you get it all! 

Pretty much all the comments I got on my "out" post were very positive.  Mostly love and understanding a few people standing in solidarity.  It was quite lovely.  There was one comment that struck funny though.  It was from someone that I haven't seen in almost 30 years.  She knew me in high school, I was friends with her daughter and she was my young women's president.  So for all intents and purposes back 30 years ago she knew me pretty well.  

This comment started out with "I could see it coming"...the rest of the comment was sweet about stepping back may give me perspective etc...but that "I could see it coming".  How the fuck could someone I haven't seen for 30 years and who has only connected with me on FB a few years ago "see it coming" when I DIDN'T EVEN SEE IT COMING?  When none of my good close friends could see it coming?  When my kids and family didn't see it coming?  

What about my church going, relief society teaching, temple attending, tithe paying, garment wearing, praying daily, Jesus worshiping posts and life made it seem like "it was coming"?  

Was it the word fuck?  Because I know that word has become a favorite recently.  Was it the fact that I don't attend church during goat season because I literally have to work 7 days a week for 4 months?  Was it my posts about loving chickens or goats and my farm?  Was it my posts about learning to can or make homemade soap and cheese?  I know, it was the posts of my grandkids and spending time with them!

Maybe it was my posts about loving my LGBTQ children.  It may have been my post donating my money to Mama Dragons.  It could have been my posts about not voting for Trump, or my posts about women having control over what happens in their bodies.  For sure it was my post about attending a Mormon Feminist retreat in April and loving every minute of it.  

That's what it probably was.  Me loving people, and making sure everyone has rights. 

Nothing a true believing Mormon loves more than to tell people what to do with their own bodies, how to vote, and who to love.  I feel like I can make statements like these because I was that TBM (true believing mormon) who made those kinds of judgement calls.  I was so wrong and blinded.

So if anyone "saw it coming" good for you!